The Chase

Ok, so lately in my english class we've been discussing the grecian urn and it's themes. boring, right? but one theme that stuck to mind, as i was texting away in class, was the theme of the chase and the capture. at first glance this seems like regular english mumbo jumbo, right? but when i really analyzed it, as i do when i'm incredibly bored, i found that this meaning sums up my life and my emotions at this point. i'm gonna level with ya here: i suck at relationships. the only good one i've ever had was with a boy who lives across the country. my ex and i have had a rocky "relationship" ever since we met about two years ago and the breakups, there were two, were due to my incompetence. my current boyfriend, who is a clemson-bound senior, is a person i very rarely see or talk to, bullshit. that's my life...anyway....this theme struck in me something fierce. as all my fellow junior girls talk about the commitment issues of their boyfriends, significant others and friends with benefits, i ponder my true commitment to a relationship. with the three boyfriends i've had during high school, i had always "admired from afar" before actually dating them. the thrill of a new, interested guy excites me....the capture...not so much...is it because i don't spend enough time with them? who knows! with all of them, i felt that when we were together for a long time, i needed to get away because they would irk the living hell out of me...but after the break-up, which i subconciously made sure happened, i would still talk to them and hang out with them like i should have while we were going out...i'm so confusing....maybe i'm meant to be a swinging single...but i gotta tell ya, the attention i get when i have a boyfriend is overwhelming. it's like when i'm taken boys can't get enough of me...when i'm single everyone else is coupled up...jk jk but seriously, for me, the chase is definately way more fun than the capture...not to bust down any egos...but it takes alot to get me interested and lindenwold just isn't providing....lol....jp :p